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Reiku's Perfect Memory; Events in a homunculus' mind
Topic Started: Jan 2 2009, 01:01 AM (345 Views)
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Genesis

<<Inside the tube>>

Water...

...bubbles...

...where am I? I can't move... I can't even see anything... just the green liquid of the container in which I'm in...


He moved a hand and saw a blurry figure in front of his eyes.

I can move but...barely...

...where am I?...


He closed his eyes. He felt tired and sleepy.

Who am I?

<<After the experiment>>

This man says he was my father. I've been in a tube as far as I can remember but I seem to be remembering days when I was a child. If so...then what was that tube I was in?

<<A few months later>>

He explained it all to me...I was...a homunculus... And artificial human as a replacement for his son. But telling me this means one thing. To him I wasn't his son at all. If he considered me a son, he wouldn't have said those things to me. I'm just a homunculus...not even human

<<a few days>>

I wanted to please my 'father' so much that I'm willing to help him in any way I can. I tried to get close but he would alway push me away or leave. What am I? What is my purpose? I want to know.

...

He got mad at me and told me to get lost. I want to but I can't leave my one and only family. I do have one...don't I?


<<a week after>>

He's dead... He's not moving or breathing. He's dead...

so this is what dying is like. I wish I know how it feels. It looks peaceful though but...I'm a bit afraid...I don't know why but I'm afraid.


<<a few days>>

"Kch!" He fell back and staggered as he felt a sharp pain in his chest.

A sharp object? It hurts...It hurts...

He started to run the other direction and stumbled into some sort of pit.

Am I going to die?...

He asked himself as his vision faded.

<<a few months later>>

He opened his eyes. There were people looking down at him.

I'm alive?...how...? I didn't die? Amazing. I was able to live.

He looked down on his chest and saw a prominent scar from which he could remember clearly.

My hear was pierced but I lived.

He shook his head and frowned.

So what is my purpose here? If I had none, I probably should've died already but I didn't. I need to fine my purpose. I need to know...then I could be at peace.
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I was on the way to the tavern. I encountered this noble that was bragging about his social status. Hah, I couldn't help but sigh at his annoying display of airheadedness. I took a lot of gold from him in exchange. I was able to get a lot for my first picking so I decided that I could go to the tavern early.

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There ia a noble woman in the tavern. A pregnant one at that. What would she be doing to a place like this? She doesn't fit in at all. Her belly had been in the way when she was cleaning out the glass that she had dropped. Why is no one approaching her? I guess I'll have to...

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I witnessed the birth of a child. It looked painful and I felt some hint of pity for the females since they have to undergo this painful experience. If it hurt that much why don't they avoid it? That question was answered when I saw the fruit of her painful labor.

It took a while before she was done with this painful experience. It's true what they say. When giving birth, one of the mother's foot is in the grave. I could see that there was so much blood as the baby was being born. Eliza said that it was lucky that the baby had come out right and there was no need for a cesarian section. I have no idea what that is but seeing the relieved look on their faces, it seems as it if fortunate that the birth had gone so well.

Adri was very happy especially when she held the child in her arms. I wonder what could make her so happy about it. I don't think I understand fully yet what is it that is there to be happy about. I found my answer when she offered for me to hold her child. I was given a congratulations in different forms when that had happened. I don't know why but these people seemed to be more cheerful that usual.

I stepped up and held the child in my arms. I felt as smiled forming on my lips. I don't know why but it just did. I asked her if it was a girl or boy or what the name is. I was clearly showing my interest in the child even though I have not the slightest idea why.

I thought to myself
, "So this is a newborn child. It's so beautiful, this little bundle of joy." It's no wonder that women are willing to undergo this painful process. I still have a lot to learn
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Blades of Brotherhood

"Hey!" A young man had waved to me and handed me a small piece of paper. I stared at it in awe and looked to the person that had given it to me. But when I looked, he was already gone.

I shrugged my shoulders and continued to read. True enough, the letter was for me. However, it seemed unbelievable. I was being hired but not as an assassin. I was being asked only to steal. It was unusual in my opinion. I've never been hired to just simply steal before. Also, the amount was not a small one. It would rival those jobs that I have taken and placed so much effort in.


I weighted the choices if I should go or not. Going would meant a good pay. Not going would save me the trouble of exerting too much effort. Going would make me spend much. Not going would make me miss out on what they want me to steal.

Then it hit me.


Curiosity got the best out of me. I decided to go. I wanted to know what artifact this is that they had to hire a thief just because he was recommended. It didn't seem like a trap. After all, that boy is known in this town as one of the letter boys. Messengers of the black market. No one would suspect them much. These people know their way around the black market, I can tell by how they right.

I decided to go. I could use a little bit of exercise and excitement every onece in a while. Besides, It doesn't sound that bad. Of course, if it were a trap, I wouldn't deny that I am a fumbling idiot. No one would travel that far just because of a few gold coins.

I stopped a bit in my tracks. It can't be a trap. Authorities would rarely be in that place. Nevertheless, the journey would be hard if I have to always worm my way around.

I left anything I have that would cause a riot or panic if anyone were to see them. I had to go without any weapons. It's a dangerous and impractical decision but I have a feeling that I wouldn't be needing them on my way there. Besides, I'm tired a bit and for once, I want to travel with ease.

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First Lessons

I'm dying. I've lost too much blood. I'm still wondering how I had survived. I've been shot through the heart, the arrow still lodged in my chest, skewering my homunculus heart through and through. My clothes are all bloody and reeking of the smell of dried blood. My vision is a bit hazy. I've fallen from a cliff and almost drowned in a river. I don't know where I'm going, I don't know where I am.

My legs are already shaking and I could feel as if they are going to shatter like glass anytime. The sun is too hot, as if spiting me, and cursing me to death. My legs are screaming, wanting to just break free, or at the least, break down.

I can't take it any longer, my blood stained blindfold is obscuring my view. Although it's supposedly see through cloth, the blood is blinding me. I don't know if I'm floating or still walking or just dreaming.

My answer was clear when I tasted dirt. Soil had gotten into my mouth and I tried to spit it out weakly. I felt some footsteps on the ground. I couldn't tell if they were two legged or not. Part of me wanted to just die and another is extremely afraid to die.

I wanted to scream as the wooden splinter on my chest was pulled out. Something was covering my wounds. There are two of them. On the outside was something a bit cold and artificial. Inside, I felt something warm flooding over the inside of my entire body.

There was something different. I felt something from the inside wrapping up my wounds. Closing them. Healing them.

That moment, I felt myself being carried. It wasn't strongly and I feared that I may be ending up as a meal in the next few hours. I should get out. I should get away. I don't want to die just yet.

I struggle but it backfired and I ended up leaning on my savior or captor as the case may be. At the worst, it may be my predator and I have fallen prey. I prayed to anyone to save me or at the least watch over me. I never knew about gods and I was hoping that someone would randomly help me or hear my prayer. I threw it all on fate as I felt myself blacking out and getting numbed. Eventually, I succumb to unconsciousness.

Will this be the last thing I see?
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Barely Alive

I woke up and saw that my wound has healed up. Impossible. The arrow was even out of my chest now, I don't know how but the wound was gone. Only a scar remained there as a mark that an arrow had pierced through skin and bone. A gave it a gentle tap and didn't feel any pain at all. I was fully healed. I realized this and got out of bed slowly and dragged my feet along the floor. I felt hot and I needed something to cool myself down. I saw something far out. A well, it seems. I started to run towards it and quickly hoisted up some water, greedily gulping down the water, half of it going all over my body instead.

I was full and let the bucket fall back down, resting on the groud, my thirst was quenched. I saw a girl but only her silhouette. The sun glared down upon me as I looked up at her. She must be the healer that had saved my life. How thankful I am. I almost embraced her as I thanked her and asked for another favor. I needed a bath, my clothes were soaked with too much blood. Thanks to her, I was able to rinse and clean off. I smelled the stew that she was cooking and couldn't help it as my mouth started to water, hungry for food. I haven't eaten in a while after all. She gave me a set of spare clothes. Harmony. That was her name. Yes, I remember. Her brother and father was suspicious of me, perhaps because of the blindfold. She assured me that they would not mind when I had asked her that I don't want my eyes to be seen. I was sensitive about it. Luckily they didn't mind and after dinner, her father went out to work. She was worried about the wolves that might attack. I decided to help. I asked her for a few tools and took my dagger. It made her worry a bit so I promised that no hammer will ever come to her or her family. With that. I took off.
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I did something that I wasn't expecting of myself. I had asked to be the father of the child. It's hard to comprehend why I had done it. The others were already congratulating me as well. I'm confused. But I felt compelled to do so. I felt compelled to protect the child and this woman. I didn't know why but I just do. Was this love? Why does it feel different than the first time I fell...no, I want to forget that. I don't want to remember that event anymore. It's too much of a pain to remember.

There was a warning that sounded throughout the tavern. It was a raid. Quickly, I carried the woman, Adri, and brought her child, Raina, with me as I had led us to the hidden passage under the tavern. This place had been home to many thieves and murderers. We are being hunted down. Who is better to look out for us than each other? I had thought about making a guild for a safe haven. But that was for another time. Right now, the only ones in priority is this woman, my wife, and the girl, my daughter.

I was troubled. I didn't know if I would be a good father. A criminal like me to raise a child. But that was all good. I want to have a goal. Something I can fight for. I carried her into a room and let her rest. The raid would take place for a while so we need to shelter here. Ah, yes, criminals. Is this what would most people expect? Helping out each other in times of need. No, I know a few select people that don't deserve that title. I went to get some food for us and a crib for Raina. Then, I'll spend some time with my beloved wife. I let her rest, doing everything I can to make her comfortable. Birth was such a painful task. I have pity for the women for they have to go through such a thing. She needs to rest and I'll make sure she gets the rest she so well deserves.
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My employer was a woman. I do not know of her so I can't say much about her. It's just business. I never ask the details except when it really matters. You can't be a good assassin or thief to hire if you had to question everything. Her job was simple. Retrieve a dagger and kill three of the elite guards. Sounds easy enough, doesn't it? She seemed to trust me much that I won't backstab her. I guess she has some great magic and force to reckon with. She even let me borrow a katana and the bird during the mission. I did not expect it but the bird was incredibly intelligent. She only have the order and it was following my orders, reasonable ones of course. I could see some watchers. Sent by her, most likely, to keep me in check. I scouted around for an entrance to the structure. I picked out a dagger from a petty thief trying to conceal it. I continued to look for an entrance. It was really hard to find one. Thank the gods for her avian, Sora, as she had shown me one effective way to sneak in. All I had to do was enter when no one was looking. Poof! I'm in. No one is around. I wonder why. I thought places like these were heavily guarded.

I heard a loud cry. A crazy blind man started to wail and charge at me. It was noisy and berserk. At this rate, they will spot me. Damn. I was finding it hard to wield a katana. Thankfully, the man had a lot of flaws that I can exploit. It took a while but I managed to wound him fatally, bringing him into his knees. One last slash and I took off his head. Nothing personal. Just business. I continued my way. Hopefully I won't get cornered and trapped. I sense some people coming. I decided to hide in a dark place and waited for them to pass by before I strike. And then, after a while...I did. I wonder how things would turn out.
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Another Target

I met another hooded person during a trip to the tavern. What is it with these kind of people? It's as if they know where I am all the time. It's starting to get annoying. I swear, whenever I see one of these people, I already expect that they have job for me. True enough, the figure approached me and told me about a job. His details were...how can I put it? Extremely detailed? He knows so much about this target that I'm getting pissed and want to tell him to go hunt her down herself if he knows too much of her. But that would ruin this job oppotunity, won't it? Well, at least it's easier than that time a hooded woman told me to go to one place and kill a girl. Now THAT needs details. Well, I accepted the job anyway, seeing at how much gold I was offered. What can I say? It's a bit of a weakness.

Soon, I found myself in this forest, waiting for the chance to strike up on the girl. Of course, her death would be quick and painless. I'm not one to delight myself in making people suffer. There would be no fun in torturing them then killing them. At least, not for me. I always wanted a fast swift kill. I would not be a good assassin if they see me coming most of the time, would I?

Well, finally. That took her a long time to arrive, doesn't it? Well, I suppose a quick stab would do the trick. Just one itty bitty stabbity for her...huh?...wait! Damn. She ran away. She detected me. I hurled the dagger and went in for the chase. This may seem harder than I thought. I keep chasing but she just kept dodging and running. I have to say, she is really one hell of a runner. I'm getting pissed. I'm going to kill her slowly for this. I'm going to make her feel pain and make her wish that she had not started to run away. I would have given her a quick and painless death then. Now. Let's kill!
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I had gone into a tavern. I didn't know where my feet had led me but here I am. I was ordering up lots and lots of ale bu I can't seem to drown myself in alcohol. My despair is still with me. Harmony has a new lover and it was obvious that she doesn't need me anymore. I still keep her cloth with me all the time. I don't know why I'm still finding something to attach myself to her. I drank and drank and drank. I don't know how much I can tolerate. I can already feel myself warming up and I figure that even a thing such as me can also get drunk, though, in a very very indulging manner. I've already lost count as to how much I have already drunk and I don't think I'm in the mood to start counting.

I heard someone come in the tavern. I wouldn't care but I saw heads turning and I was influence to turn my head as well. I saw a gypsy, coming in a tavern like this. Isn't it a bit dangerous? A young girl just walking right in? But, I saw faces of disgust towards her. Maybe it was because she was a gypsy. She had sat beside me. Everyone seemed wary of her just because that was the way that she dressed. Oh, how I hate discrimination and stereotyping. It's a pain in the behind. Anyway, she talked to me and asked me if I were troubled. I took in a few more mugs of ale. I can feel my insides getting warmed up but no dizziness, no forgetting my sorrows, no nothing! I found myself getting interested in her for some reason. I can't really pinpoint the matter. Maybe the alcohol was clogging my brain and I can't really think that much. I told her that I am indeed roubled and trying to get drunk. I told her that I wish to get myself drunk to forget my despairs. I wonder how our story will turn out to be. I decided to talk to her anyway. Maybe she could keep me company.
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Things are well. I may have found a couple of people to hire as my eyes and ears all across the land of Avalon and possibly beyond. A small group of anthros that I managed to come across during my journeys. A vast variety if I may add. I managed to rescue them from game hunters that have grown tired of hunting simple animals and have gone into capturing these beings for their own cruel amusement. It would have not been an issue to me if they had not insisted on treating them like animals, locking them go cages. Even so, a couple of them managed to come up with a strange fetish. Urusenai. While a part of me enjoyed killing, it was also the part that was disgusted with making trophies. I just had to do something.

Now, they are under the care of the guild. Currently dead weight but I shall train them to be great scouts at the least. I would help them survive and in time, they shall be a great asset.
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It was...strange. Many of those being that I had rescued were so young. Survivors or the harsh moments in their lives. Some of them were incredibly grateful and were already pledging their loyalty. While I was not an opportunist, I could not persuade them otherwise when I thought that there was another place they can go and live normal lives. They said that I had risked my life to save them so they would put theirs on the line for me as well. I felt like a slave driver and started to ask around for those who wished to stay. A couple took the offer of protection and went on to live their lives. A couple of them stayed and said that they would serve the guild with their utmost loyalty.

If they wish for it, then so be it. I started to train them, harshly at times. I never heard a word of complaint only compliments and I can see the results. Even they themselves were thankful for the training. I purchased (and stole a few, haha) weapons and equipment for them. After all, I wouldn't have them head into battle unarmed, wouldn't I? Of course, I wouldn't send them into battle. I needed scouts and information gatherers all around Avalon. They were eager and just perfect for the job.
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I was surprised. The guilt that had been eating in me was too much. I just had to let her know of the affair that I had. Adri had the right to know. I will have to talk to Laina as well. Maybe it would have been better if I had talked to the two of them. I did not want to lose any one of them and I know that it's wrong.

Adri had suspected me and her suspicions had been confirmed. But, she did not pushed me away. Her love for me was unwavered. That guilt started to eat me more and more. I had broken down into tears. It was then I decided to make up for what I had done. I proposed to her. She accepted it with much joy that we were finally to be wed officially. Many things happened. I do not know if I can handle it all at once.
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Laina and I held a meeting. Just the two of us. Supposedly a guild meeting but knowing how much we had longed for each other, there would be something else that would happen. It was obvious when we had seated ourselves. Immediately, we were showing public displays of affection. Our guild meeting was derailed as we decided to take it into a room. I was not suprised though. We both lusted for each other. But I also loved her. She was my first and we met in not a good way. But I love her. And I hope that it wasn't just lust she felt for me. I hated the looks she were getting from the men, I'll purge this tavern after I leave.
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It has been a while but I still haven't forgotten. What you ask? Who rather. A person that I was glad to have been part of my life. My very first love, Harmony. It's been a while since we have last seen each other. I felt a pang of envy and jealousy as I found out about her and her lover. It hurt. Terribly. But...it was my fault that I had let her go. Now, I have to be a man and accept the consequences. A man of seven year of age, that is. But...I do not want to be a man of too many sins. I have a wife and a lover which I both don't want to let go. I wish Harmony is well. I hope to see her again. I hope to rekindle our friendship. I have a lot of stories to tell. I wish her well and I know...I still love her.
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I've brought this woman along as a hostage. She had a very negative disposition towards me. Haha. I'm not suprised. I took her by force because she was a witness. I do not need a rat to tell on me. I had brought her into an inn. An inn known for rapes and murders. Maybe that will keep her in place. Alas, I was wrong. Unfortunately, or was that fortunately? She had run into a balding man. I had to rescue her. Ah, this is one hell of a rest. I killed the man and dragged her back in. Seems like she would have been violated and left for dead if I had not arrived. Trouble seems to be coming for us. She was a kind and attractive girl. Had we met in different circumstances, we might have been good friends. And I had a feeling...maybe more than friends.
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